Safe Sleeping {HALO sleepsack giveaway}

As I've been researching ways to help Raegan sleep at night and how to keep her safe while she was sleeping I was astounded that more than half of U.S. parents say their babies sleep with pillows, stuffed animals, and blankets despite recommendations from their pediatricians! Holy moly that's a lot!

UNSAFE SLEEPING

By having all of these extras in the bed with baby, their chance of SIDS goes way up. I know for me I worry about Raegan constantly and I don't want to add anything to increase her risk of SIDS at all. So when Raegan goes to sleep, there are no stuffed animals, no blankets, and no pillows in her crib. But then you might ask, how does she stay warm? That's where the HALO sleepsack comes in!

SAFE SLEEPING

This amazing little sleepsack keeps baby warm during the night. We had the HALO swaddle sleepsack when Raegan was born and it was great because we could swaddle her arms and her muscle jerk reaction wouldn't wake her up. Now that she's older, she wants her arms free to sleep which is why the HALO sleepsack is perfect! Mostly because she wants to put her thumb in her mouth, which I'm fine with because she's learning to self soothe! She is also starting to roll over and she can do that in her sleepsack.

Now we always put her to bed on her back, but if she wants to be a tummy sleeper, so be it! The sleepsack allows her to have her arms free to help her roll, but still gives her that since of snugness and security.

Here are some more safety tips to remember when you are putting baby down.

ALWAYS

• Place baby to sleep on his or her back at naptime and at night time. 
• Use a crib that meets current safety standards with a firm mattress that fits snugly and is covered with only a tight-fitting crib sheet.
• Remove all soft bedding and toys from your baby’s sleep area (this includes loose blankets, bumpers, pillows and positioners). The American Academy of Pediatrics suggests using a wearable blanket instead of loose blankets to keep your baby warm.
• Offer a pacifier when putting baby to sleep to help baby soothe. If breastfeeding, introduce pacifier after one month or after breastfeeding has been established as not to have nipple confusion.
• After feeding the baby in the middle of the night, put your baby back to sleep in his or her separate safe sleep area alongside your bed or in his or her own nursery.
• Room share, but don’t bed share. Bed sharing can put a child at risk of suffocation.

NEVER

• Never put your baby to sleep on any soft surface (adult beds, sofas, chairs, water beds, quilts, sheep skins etc.)
• Never dress your baby too warmly for sleep; keep room temperature 68-72 degrees Fahrenheit.
• Never allow anyone to smoke around your baby or take your baby into a room or car where someone has recently smoked.

Would you like the chance to win a HALO sleepsack or sleepsack swaddle for your baby? Enter using the rafflecopter below! Good luck! Open to US and Canada residents only!

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4 months old

Goodness gracious I have to get better at posting her monthly updates! She will be 5 months in 10 days. Sheesh! And 1 of the reasons I'm late is because I couldn't get her to cooperate sitting in her chair in her nursery. I wanted to take the picture in the same place, but that has proved to be pretty hard if she's not into it. So each month has been a different place. Oh well! Life of a momma.
Look how big you are getting Raegan Phair! Who would have known the string bean baby I brought home from the hospital would turn into a chunk like you? You have rolls all over your arms and legs and those cheeks are just as chunky as they could be! You are growing like a weed. The activity jumper we got you in early November already needs to be pulled up a notch so your legs fit under it. When we first got it your toes barely touched the floor.

You are sitting up on your own, but when you fall over is unpredictable. Sometimes it's 2 seconds later or 1 minute later. You're getting better every day!

We have moved you to your crib because you figured out how to flip yourself over in your rock n play. You sneaky little girl! We had to be very creative in how to elevate your crib since you have to sleep at an incline because of your cleft palate. But we've made it work and you're sleeping great.

We also started letting you learn to put yourself to sleep. Oh goodness, you weren't too happy about that. Especially during nap time. You got the hang of it pretty quickly at night, but naps have been brutal, but your protest gets less and less at every nap.

You love to laugh, giggle, and smile. You react when anyone talks to you a with a huge toothless grin. You love to blowing spit bubbles and I can even hear you doing it over the monitor in the middle of the night. You little night owl.

You love when momma sings to you! I pretty much sing to you all day to keep you smiling! And most of the songs I've made up, but you love them.

We just had your 2nd sleep study and how to get the results back soon. You slept great except when they had to mess with the equipment. Momma and Daddy sleeping on the other hand, was not so great.

You are changing every day and I can't believe 4 months has already gone by! We love you so much our Raegan Phair.

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Christmas Card Link Up

I am linking up with Lyndsey over at "Life.Laughter.Love Loftlands" to show off our Christmas card!

When I was younger, I was always bugging my mom to do a Christmas card. She would always do one, but said she wouldn't write a letter. I couldn't wait to be married and have my own family to write a letter for each year! I love looking how things have changed over the years! My mom has saved each of our cards since the year we got married. This is our 6th Christmas as a married couple. I may have to go take pictures of them when I'm at her house and post them here!

I absolutely love checking out everyone's cards, what they've been up to this year, and how their families have changed! Here is ours!

Writing this year's letter was such a sweet experience. Last Christmas we sent our our pregnancy announcement as a New Year's card, and this year we got to announce the birth of our miracle baby. It took us a long time to get pregnant with her and stay pregnant with her. She is for sure our miracle baby and I am still in awe that she is here and she is all ours!

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Christmas Conversations

I'm linking up with my dear friend, Abby, over at her adorable blog, The Inspired Apple! Part education, part personal blog! She's just pure awesomeness if you ask me. She has this adorable linky that I can't wait to share with you!

Head on over and join the fun! It's a quick and easy!! :)  

Merry Christmas!!

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Wasn't Expecting That

Well I wasn't expecting that.

My period.

For the first time in over a year.

I know it had to come back eventually, but since I'm exclusively pumping I didn't expect it to be until way later or possibly not at all and then I'd be possibly pregnant with our second and begin the amazing cycle of no period for another 9 months.

But what I REALLY didn't expect was the emotional reaction I had to it. After so many negative pregnancy tests and so many periods starting when we were praying and hoping for a pregnancy, that SAME feeling came rushing back when this period started. NOT pregnant is what it screamed. Even though we aren't trying, those feelings still rang true. Defeat, anger, sadness. Why? I don't know.

Maybe it's still a reminder that we can't get pregnant. At least not the traditional way. I guess part of me hopes that we will miraculously get pregnant on our own without IVF. Wishful thinking I guess.

I am so thankful for our little miracle, Raegan, and am not taking away from the fact that she was conceived and we have a beautiful daughter, but I also know that I am not going to invalidate the way I'm feeling. The struggle of infertility doesn't go away even after a baby is born. It is part of our life from now until forever.

Now I'm off to Target to buy the necessities.

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Exactly One Year Ago Today...

I can't believe that it has been 1 year since finding out that our IVF cycle worked and we were pregnant!

I can still remember the emotions like it was yesterday. I woke up at 3am having to pee (good sign right?) and I knew I wanted to test before going in for my beta at the RE's office. But I knew if I peed right then, I wouldn't have to go before Kyle went to work. But I couldn't hold it anymore. So I got up and heard Kyle rustling. I asked if he was awake and when he said yes, I headed to the bathroom to take the test. I decided I needed two tests to make sure. And oh my goodness, those 3 minutes went by so slowly. I was convinced they were going to be negative. I didn't feel any different, no signs of being pregnant. But boy was I wrong! When we saw our beautiful 2 pink lines and a definite yes, I just burst into tears.

It was finally our turn. 

Our turn to make the announcement.

Our turn to hear our baby's heart beat for the first time.

Our turn to have a gender reveal.

Our turn to post weekly belly pictures.

Our turn to plan out the nursery.

Our turn to pick out names.

Our turn to welcome our little miracle into the world.

 We are so blessed by you Raegan Phair. You don't know how incredibly special you are. We can't wait to watch you grow and eventually add more miracles to our family so that you can have brothers and sisters to grow up with. We love you so much, our little sunshine baby!

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3 month update

Well I'm 2 weeks over due on Raegan's 3 month update. This is pretty much my life now. Always a few steps behind, but hey, at least it's still getting done! I can't believe how quickly she is growing! I am loving this stage right now. Even though I wish she would start taking longer naps during the day!

 Sweet girl, I can't believe how quickly you are growing! This month has been a big month of changes. You have gotten great head control and I bet you will be sitting up on your own very soon! You have mastered rolling over both ways, but you're not consistent with it yet, so mommy is afraid to let you sleep in your crib just yet.

We have moved you into your bedroom and you sleep in your rock n play. You go down around 8pm and sleep until 8:30am with 2 feedings throughout the night. You also love to get in bed with me at 7:30am and sleep with me until 8:30am. It's one of my favorite times of the day. You don't nap very much during the day, but it must be because you sleep so good at night! Fortunately, the short naps are really all you need because you are one happy baby when you're awake!

Your cleft palate repair was scheduled for October 22, but we decided to postpone the surgery until you are older. Lots of things have come to our attention about you sweet girl and we want whats best for you! You were diagnosed with a mild case of Pierre Robin Sequence and sleep apnea. By waiting until you are older, our hope is that you grow out of both and then when your cleft is closed, it won't be such a strain on your already small airway.

You are crazy skinny and only have rolls on your upper thigh. You didn't get to wear a lot of the summer clothes I bought you since they didn't fit. Maybe your little sister (if you have one) can wear them eventually.

You have recently found your voice and it is so darn cute! You squeal and love to make the "m" sound. You could sit in your crib or swing for hours chewing on your toes and squealing to your hearts content.

Halloween was last week and you dressed up as a mouse and mommy was a cat. You were the cutest mouse I've ever seen!

I love this time of year because of all of the holidays and this year we get to spend them with you! This time last year you had just been put back inside Momma on November 2 and we were in our 2 week wait to see if you were going to stick around. And we are sure glad you did. You make us so incredibly happy sweet girl.

You are our miracle baby for sure!

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2 month update

How are you already 2 months old?! Comparing your 1 month picture to your 2 month picture, I can't believe how much you are changing!

Your personality is starting to shine through and my favorite time with you as right when you wake up in the morning. You're so happy and you love to just sit in my lap and smile at me! Your little cheeks are getting chunkier and that's the only part of you that is! You are so long that there is no where on your body that has little baby rolls!

But oh those cheeks! *swoon*

You did great at your 2 month appointment and only cried for a few second for your shots. But goodness, you were cranky pants that evening when we got home. You cried and cried and when daddy couldn't take it anymore he put you on the bed and told momma it was her turn to watch you. Right as I walked in you let out the biggest blowout in your diaper you've ever had. Turned out you had gas on top of being cranky from the shots. Once we changed your diaper, you were good to go!

Your hair is getting blonder and I am so happy about that! Daddy wanted his little girl to be his blue eyed blondie and it looks like he's going to get his wish!

You are so particular in regards to who can hold you. Momma and Daddy are #1, and now you are ok with Cece and Gramma Kate and Aunt Coco, but not for long. You want Momma and Daddy pretty quick. And anyone who you don't know, forget it. You will last maybe 2 minutes :) But I can't complain. I can't describe the joy I get knowing that I am the only one who can calm you down in the drop of a hat. Even when Daddy can't calm you down, Momma can. I sure love you sweet little girl.

Your surgery to repair your cleft palate is coming up on October 22. We are so ready to have this over with. You will have to stay in the hospital over night and have a feeding tube for 10 days once you come home. We are praying your doctor can fix the entire cleft palate so that we do not have to do this again at 18 months.

We found out you love to sleep on your tummy so nap time is going so much better! You still sleep on your back at night since you are swaddled, but as soon as you can roll over, I know we won't be able to stop you from sleeping on your tummy.

I love you sweet Raegan Phair. You made me a momma when I wasn't sure if that was ever going to happen. I can't wait to tell you about how you were our miracle baby one day.

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To Regret or Not?

So the saying is so true.

Don't have a birth plan.

As soon as you start planning for how you want your birth to go down, that's when the exact opposite will happen.

As I sat in my hospital bed after we began my induction (something I didn't want to do, but ended up being necessary), my nurse asked if I had a birth plan.

Well yeah, I did, and I spent hours upon hours typing it up, but of course I left it at home. **cue irony**

When I told her this, she said, "honestly, you don't need it. because births will happen the way they are supposed to."

Boy, was she she right.

I wanted a natural birth.

Instead I was induced, had my water broken, had pitocin, had an epidural, and had a c section.

None of that was in my plan.

Here was my plan.

And I will tell you not ONE part of this birth I got. Not even breastfeeding. Which breaks my heart the most. Even though it's not because I couldn't produce milk. My sweet one's cleft palate doesn't allow her to. Praying she can after her surgery in October.

I have struggled with regretting how everything went down. Had a waited longer would she had come on her own?

After Raegan was born the doctor confirmed that she would not have come on her own no matter how long we waited. She wasn't descending into the birth canal therefore wasn't putting pressure on my cervix to dilate. Even though I've been told that by my doctor, I still can't help but feel guilty for not pushing for my "birth plan."

When my doctor came to check me at 9am, she ended up breaking my water while checking me and putting an internal fetal monitor next to Raegan's cheek to monitor the strength of my contractions. She didn't tell me this until after she did it. I think she knew I would have protested. And even though that did happen, I still love my doctor and trust her. And in the end she knew what she was doing.

After she walked out of the room I just started crying. I had already accepted I was having to do pitocin and induction, but was going to be allowed to move around the room and labor in other positions besides the bed. But once she had put that monitor on Raegan, I was told I had to stay in bed because if I moved around I could dislodge it.

Well that was the end. There was no way I'd be able to labor in that bed without an epidural for a long period of time. But I told myself I was going to give it my all and I did. For 8 hours I labored in that bed on high levels of pitocin without an epidural. At one point, I told my nurse I was getting up and I didn't care what she said. I had to labor in a different position. So she allowed me to labor on the ball for a few hours and it really helped the pain level.

Getting the epidural was something I wanted to strive to not do, but it wasn't the end of the world when I got it. I was always open to it. And even when I wasn't progressing and the talk of a c-section began, I wasn't upset because I knew I had given it my all.

But it was just the idea that I didn't allow my body to go into labor on its own. I know I know. She wouldn't have come on her own. But still.

My doctor is on board for a VBAC though. Thank goodness! Her only stipulation is that I go into labor on my own. She can't induce a previously c-sectioned momma. So crossing fingers I can go into labor on my own for one of my births.

Then there's breastfeeding. Ugh. I know Raegan can't breastfeed right now because of her cleft palate, but it still breaks my heart. I produce so much milk. Like enough to have twins! And I can't feed my baby in the most natural way. Yes, she is still getting my milk, but I want that bonding time with her. My body reacts to her. I start producing milk when she cries and my body is doing what it's made to do. But when she starts to cry and my body is doing what it's made to do, I have to go warm up a bottle. It breaks my little momma heart.

But in the end, my sweet miracle baby is here and who cares how she got here? Honestly. I do have lots of feelings of how everything went down, but I don't regret it. And I never did until talking to friends after she arrived.

All of the feelings I've had have been brought on by other moms who didn't agree with how I gave birth. Being told numerous times "you should have waited" or "don't back down from what you want" breaks my heart because it wouldn't have mattered. My baby was stuck in my hip. My doctor is a doctor for a reason. She knows what she's doing!

These days so many mommas judge other mommas for their choices of how they birth, how they feed their baby, what they feed their baby, and so much more.

Mommas, we must STOP! Each of us is the most perfect momma for our baby and we know what's best for our OWN baby.

The best thing you can do for a momma friend who didn't get the birth they wanted is say, "I know it didn't go down the way you wanted, but your sweet bundle of joy is HERE!"

Because in the end, that's all that matters.

And there's always baby #2 to try for a natural birth, right? :)

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Raegan's Schedule

I don't know about you, but I thrive off a schedule. Well turns out, so does miss Raegan!

Now there are many opinions out there about when it's appropriate to put a baby on a schedule. As a new mom, I had and sometimes still have no clue what I'm doing! But I paid attention to my little love bug and started realizing I was actually the one making her cranky and fussy! 

I know!!! {insert shocked face!}

Now newborns are on such sporadic schedules that trying to put them on one will likely drive you insane! Especially because they are up throughout the night numerous times. 

From the time Raegan came home from the NICU we just continued the schedule we had learned in the hospital. Feed every 3 hours. And before you feed, change her diaper. So that you can put baby back down right after her feeding. And that worked well for us at the beginning when she was sleeping all the time!

Then she started to be more awake and we kind of took the stance of if she's awake, we will let her be awake. Yeah, that didn't work. Babies need sleep and they won't always go to sleep even when they need to! So the result of that was a very overly tired baby and very tired parents.

So I started doing research and it showed that a baby Raegan's age, 6 weeks old (yes, 6 weeks. I can't believe it either!) should only be awake 40-50 minutes at a time. 

Well there was our problem! We were keeping her up too much!

She needed some awake time to allow her to get stronger both physically and socially, but she was getting too much! She was getting overly tired and pretty much wasn't napping at all during the day and if she was, I had to be holding her and if I did manage to nail the transfer from me to the bed, they were short little cat naps.

I was getting nothing done and things had to change!!

Hence, I started Raegan on a schedule. Every baby is different and may not be able to tolerate a schedule at 6 weeks. This is just what worked for Raegan and I. You have to do what's best for you and your sweet baby.

So let's start at the beginning of the day. 

Raegan wakes up at 5:30am from sleeping the whole night. So we will start there. 

I know, we are blessed with a baby that sleeps through the night at 6 weeks. I've decided we are due something easy because Lord knows getting pregnant with her was anything but easy!!! 

And then her 28 hour birth and stay in the NICU earns us easy potty training right?! ;)

Alright, onto the schedule.

5:30am- Kyle feeds Raegan while I pump. Praise Jesus for that man! I do my devotional while I pump. It's the only time of day where I can fit it in! Early morning with my Lord!

6:15am- Kyle leaves for work and I go back to bed. 

8:30-9am- Raegan wakes up. I change her and feed her and put her right back down. Whenever she is being fed or sleeping, she is swaddled. This is a physical cue for her to know we are eating then going to sleep. 

9:30am-12pm- nap

12pm- I change her and feed her. If she's acting like she's tired. I put her back down. If she's awake, then I put her in her rocker in the bathroom with me and I pump while doing my make up and hair. Impressive multi tasking going on! Then we play for alittle bit before putting her down. I watch her for cues of yawning or rubbing her eyes. If she does this while I'm getting ready, I stop and put her down and continue getting ready after she's down. And if I need to run an errand, this is the time I do it and I don't put her down. She takes a few cat naps while we are out.

3pm- change, feed, and down for a nap. She may sleep till 6. If she does, great, if she doesn't, we play for a bit. But I don't get her up until at least 5:15 so that she's not overly tired at 6pm for her feeding.

6pm- change, feed, and play until daddy gets home around 7pm. 

7pm- go for a walk, take a bath, then one last feeding before bed. 

8-8:30pm- down for the night.

She normally will sleep until 4 or 5 the next morning. She may eventually need a dream feed (10-11pm) before we go to sleep, but she hasn't needed that yet.

Of course, her schedule changes occasionally up or down an hour, but I just go with it. And sometimes she sleeps less or longer. You have to ebb and flow with baby's tempo.

If you have any questions, let me know in the comments and I will answer them the best I can!

Don't get discouraged if your baby doesn't respond to a schedule yet. They will! 

And sometimes you will have to sit by their bed as they sleep to help soothe them if they are waking up multiple times throughout their nap. 

That's exactly what I'm doing right now!

Tune in for my next post of how I put Raegan down and how I keep her asleep! 

And because you have to keep a smile on your face when you want to rip your hair out...

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Putting and Keeping Baby To Sleep

Now I by NO means have the answer to the asked question of "how do you keep a baby asleep?" but this is what has worked for me!

I have linked each picture to where you can purchase each item.

First off, here are the thing I use for her sleep time.

I would be lost with our swaddle blankets. The swaddle me blankets are my favorite because Raegan is a wiggle worm and will wiggle out of the best of swaddles, but these swaddles have velcro and try as she might, she has a hard time getting out.

AND they come in large too (14-20 pounds) So we can use them for awhile! They come in boy and gender neutral colors too!

Next up is the paci. Yes, we use a paci and I LOVE THEM! And so does Raegan. They really do an amazing job at soothing her. I'm so glad she takes a paci. These are the ones we use. Since she has a cleft palate and can't get a very good suck and seal of the cleft, these are great because the nipple is long and she's able to suck and close that hole with the paci.

And along with her pacifers she has a wubbanub. I love her "wubby" because it has the lamb attached to it and it's hard to lose BUT I can also swaddle wubby in her swaddle and it doesn't fall out of her mouth as much. We didn't start doing this until she was a little older and had more head control. She can still get the paci out of her mouth so there is no risk of suffocation. The wubbanub comes is many different animals!

Next up is what she sleeps in. We have the graco pack n play set up in our room and when she first came home she slept in the bassinet portion of the pack n play. It actually detaches from the pack n play so we were able to move it wherever we needed to! Loved that feature!

Now that she's older and LONGER she's not always a fan of the pack n play. So we purchased a Fisher Price rock n play and this what she sleeps in at night and for her naps. It's also good because she can sleep alittle reclined and with her cleft palate she is very stuffy so this allows her to breathe better. And it vibrates! Halle to the lujah!

Ok so now that you've seen WHAT I use let's get to the HOW! Well first off, with her schedule she eats right before she goes down. So I always swaddle her and get ready to go to sleep before feeding her. It's her cue that it's time to eat then take a nap.

After she eats I do not rock her for very long since I don't want her using me as a way to fall asleep. So I put her in her rock n play and rock her. Yes, she is using the rocking to fall asleep, but that habit we can break later. And I am not saying I don't rock my baby because if she needs it, I'm the first to give it to her. (fussy, gassy, just needs some momma loving, etc).

I make sure she has a paci in her mouth and the swaddle strategically holding it in her mouth so she doesn't spit it out, and I rock the rock n play with my foot. Lots of multitasking!

I also like to hold the paci in her mouth and rest my hand on her chest as she falls asleep. This gives her the sense that I'm still there and haven't left and I'm able to keep the paci in if she starts moving her head around. She tends to do this right before she falls asleep.

Now here is the kicker. How long do you does this for? It all depends. If Raegan is acting like she's not sleepy then we may play a little before attempting the nap. Remember from my last post, activity and sleep can be switched around, except of course if it's bed time.

And if I've given it a good 15 minutes and Raegans's eyes still haven't closed, I may need to pick her up and rock her a bit to get that sleepy phase started. She may even cry at me a little in her rock n play, and then the next minutes, she's asleep! I will be at my wits end and am about to pick her up because I don't think she's sleepy and then BAM! Asleep. Which is why I say give it some time! Don't pick baby up as soon as they let out a cry or seem annoyed to be in the bed.

When you are sitting and rocking the seconds creep by! You feel like it's been 20 minutes, but really it's only been 2. I urge you to give it a good 5 minutes after baby has closed their eyes. Set a timer, play some candy crush on your phone, but don't walk out just yet. Because they aren't asleep when they close their eyes. Give them some time before walking off to really fall asleep. Better to give it 5 minutes then than having to come back in a few minutes because the paci has fallen out because they weren't in a deep sleep and it woke them up. Just my two cents!

And when she does wake up in the middle of her nap or at night, I put the paci back in and start the whole process over. I don't pick her up unless she's crying. We will work on self soothing when she's alittle older, but this process is helping her learn that a little bit at a time.

Just remember, babies change constantly! Just as you are about to pull your hair out because they aren't sleeping more than 30 minutes or a time or they won't nap or they won't sleep unless you're holding them, they will change! Then something new will cause you to want to pull your hair out :)

As hard as this time is, baby is learning how to cope with the outside world and you have to help baby to do that.

If you have any questions, feel free to ask in the comments below. I will try to answer them as best I can!

And how can I post without a picture of Miss Priss?

spit bubbles!

oh that double chin! swoon

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One Month Update

How has a month already gone by?! I feel like it was just yesterday we were in the hospital having you! Part of me wants to be back there. Feeling all of the emotions we were feeling again. Even though we had a lot of scared and sad emotions in that hospital, I can't wait to be back there bringing home baby #2. But let's not get ahead of ourselves. For now, let's focus on you, my sweet Raegan Phair!

You are growing so big, but since you so long, you only fit in newborn clothes, which is ok, because I love how petite you are!

You have lots of hair (more in the back, mullet style) and it's a light brown color. We are thinking it'll continue to get lighter and lighter.

You love to look around at everything and I could stare into those beautiful, blue eyes all day long!

Bath time is one of your favorite times! You have pooped twice in the tub, but it's ok. You're still tiny and so are your poops!

You have your momma's patience or impatience should we say. You don't like to wait for anything. When you are hungry, you are HANGRY and we better be ready to feed you ASAP!

You are definitely a momma's girl and will settle down (most of the time) as soon as you are in momma's arms. I hope that doesn't change any time soon!

When you are fighting sleep, you love to have your head rubbed. It's puts your out right away!

I can't explain the love I feel for this little one. You are my daughter. Hearing that word, daughter, seems so foreign to me. Me? I have a daughter?

Yes. Yes, I do. And her name is Raegan Phair.

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