Body image is something I think all women deal with. And when you are pregnant I think it gets worse.
I wrote a very similar post to this one back in February 2014, but it is ringing true again now so I thought I would repost it.
I can tell you when I was my most fit. It was in 2011. I had just ran my first half marathon and was consistently running and working out. I loved how I looked. These pictures are some of my favorite, but they also are tough to look at because I don't look like that anymore.
I think in my mind I still picture myself this way, but then I see pictures of myself now and realize that things have changed.
Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't change any of the past 4 years. Those years may have been trying, but they brought us Raegan and Hudson. Even though I am grateful for both of my babies, it doesn't mean I don't struggle.
I am not complaining of gaining weight. As someone who has struggled with conceiving, I will never complain about anything associated with pregnancy. I know I need to to keep my baby healthy, but it doesn't mean I don't struggle with it every time I look in the mirror.
Then I realized that I was worshipping myself and my body. God created me and my body in his most perfect image. And I am stomping all over that.
I have become obsessed with how I look, what people think of me, and how much weight I'm gaining.
I would sit and look at my bump update pictures and touch up my double chin and try to figure out how to position my face for the next week's picture to eliminate that double chin! The maddness must stop!
It has to stop. The self destructive talk of how fat my face looks or the fact that my bum and boobs are literally doubled in size has to stop.
So to counter act the negative feelings, I have made a list of things I plan on putting into action ASAP.
1. Be thankful.
I am pregnant. God has blessed Kyle and I with a second baby that we have been praying for for a very long time. And I never want to seem ungrateful for this amazing gift.
2. Get up and move!
For the past 3 weeks I have been getting myself back into baby boot camp (3 times a week) and making myself work out. I may not feel like it, but I know that it's important for me and for my baby. If the gym is too much for you, then just get active! A walk around the block once a day is enough!
3. Be kind.
I need to start telling myself I'm beautiful and believing it. God has made me the way that I am and He does not make mistakes. I need to remind myself of this when those thoughts creep into my mind. And when Kyle tells me I'm beautiful, I need to believe it!
4. Spoil myself.
My body is changing constantly and I've decided that once a month I am going to purchase an outfit that fits me at that point in my pregnancy. We need to feel pretty at every stage of our pregnancy and having clothes that fit right and look right is so important! I hate sitting in my closet wanting to cry because nothing fits!
5. Give myself more grace.
My body is changing! It's supposed to! Things are supposed to get bigger and ya know what? It's ok! I am beautiful and you better believe I'm going to rock this bump and my gigantic tatas! :)
6. Pray.
I need to give my insecurities to the Lord. He is the only one who can make me feel better about myself and who make me see how beautiful I really am!
Will you join me in this plan? Even if you are not pregnant, but are dealing with body image. Every woman deals with her body image at some point in her life and we need to rally together and remind each other of how beautiful we are no matter our size!
Oh girl I hear ya on this especially at 40 weeks pregnant! I look back at our wedding photos from 2011 and man do I wish I was that tan, long haired thin girl! BUT it's all worth it for this little guy (when he finally decides to arrive) and after that, I can try to get my body back to a better place. I doubt I'll ever look like my old self again but that's ok, like you said God made us how we are :) You are beautiful!
ReplyDeleteI love the idea of spoiling yourself....you so deserve it. BTW, you look amazing and you have every right to be so proud of what your body can do!
ReplyDeleteI use to do the same thing with my bump update pictures. I use to get mad at J for making my double chin pop out lol Its amazing how are bodies can change but that doesn't mean we aren't beautiful the way we look. Spoiling yourself is a good thing it always makes me happy.
ReplyDeleteI love this so much! I'm not pregnant [yet] but I still struggle with this. I'm nowhere near how fit and skinny I was in undergrad when I first met my husband. I struggle with it daily and selfishly think I let it affect our marriage sometimes. I am working on not being so concerned with what I see in the mirror and believing that I'm beautiful!
ReplyDeleteI need to get back on the work out train! I feel like with with pregnancy it's not just all belly this time... It's boobs, butt and thighs oh and we can't forget the double chin!! I'm soo much bigger already with this babe than I was with my first, it's crazy, beautifully amazing, but hard to accept at times too!! I couldn't feel more blessed, but I feel like my body is getting out of control!!
ReplyDeleteThis is so great and can be applied to women before, during, and after pregnancy. Thank you for writing this.
ReplyDeleteI really needed to read this today - after two babies, I am really struggling with my body image. Thank you for sharing this and I hope you find the peace and grace x
ReplyDeleteI agree that our bodies are amazing when it comes to what they can do! I felt the same way when I was prego, especially the last month. My whole body got all swollen (my feet!) and I was not ok with it to say the least. But the great thing is that our bodies are able to recover from so much! And you look beautiful right now, did after Raegan, and will after Hudson!
ReplyDeleteUnfortunately, I changed a lot after giving birth. I got 25 kg! It was just awful, I could not look at myself in the mirror without tears. At first, my husband reassured me and said that I was beautiful. But later, when he was tired of my daily tears, he began to appear less often at home on time, practically did not talk with me, and stopped helping to manage our daughter. After a month of such a life, I only felt worse, we lost contact with our husband, we lived as neighbors. And after that, he admitted to me that he was thinking about filing for divorce online and as soon as possible because at work he fell in love with a colleague. I was beside myself. It's so hurt. But it was our divorce that became the starting point in my new life. Now I put myself in order, educate my daughter alone, and consider myself a happy person.
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