Update

It has been a long time since I have updated my personal blog. Mostly because when I started this blog I really thought I'd be pregnant by now. I wanted to document our life as we went through trying to get pregnant, but didn't expect it to be this hard. I mean I know it would be difficult, the doctor told us that. But I didn't expect the trials and difficulties we'd face through it all.

Let's recap what you've missed over the past 6 months.

February 2013- Kyle was diagnosed with varicoceles. This condition causes severe male infertility which we were told could be fixed with surgery.
March 2013- Kyle had the varicoceles surgery. We were told it could take up to 6 months for the surgery to work. So we began our wait.
March 2013- I began seeing Dr. Lowell Ku from Dallas IVF. He diagnosed me with a thyroid problem and slight PCOS. If you are in the Dallas area and need a fertility specialist I HIGHLY recommend Dr. Ku. He has been a God sent!
June 2013- Kyle had his first check up and his numbers had gone up alittle bit! Exactly what the doctor wanted.
July 2013- Kyle's numbers were good enough to try IUI. We waited for my cycle to began, but it never did. I was pregnant.
August 2013- We lost our baby. More than likely due to an unhealthy embryo since the baby was conceived without the proper help from the doctors.
September 2013- Kyle had his 2nd check up where we expected to be told his numbers were back to normal since we had gotten pregnant. The doctor instead told us his numbers were back to pre surgery level and he recommended IVF.
October 2013- We are beginning our first round of IVF.

I have been on birth control since starting my last cycle. Ironic isn't it? But the reason they put you on birth control is to shut down your ovaries so when they are ready to stimulate them, they will grow at the same rate.

Here is all the medicine I will be taking over the next 6 weeks.

I go to tomorrow (October 8) to begin my Lupron shots. They begin 10-14 days after birth control is started. These shots completely supress my ovaries until my doctor is ready to stimulate them.

I am nervous. I am nervous about the shots. I am nervous about the procedure. I am nervous about it working. I am nervous I may never be a mom, but I try to find comfort in the verse Psalm 37:4 "Delight in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart".